Yan's World

心痛的感觉

2009-11-22T23:36:00.002+08:00

那个口口声声说爱我的人就是伤我的人。。曾经以为就算他对我没感觉了，对我也不会有任何改变。。他对我开始很无礼。是他让我爱上魔术，也因为他让我恨魔术。就因为他，我又开始躲回属于我自己的世界，我又开始害怕男人。。好可怕。。究竟谁才不会伤害我陷害我骗我骂我？！但上帝是疼爱我的。因为所有欺骗我的男人都必须经历一段日子的辛苦或倒霉才能重新开始。。谢谢所有伤害我的人！

MOTHER

2009-04-22T16:07:00.001+08:00

MOTHER
“M” is for million things she gave me,
“O” means only that she’s growing old,
“T” is for the tears she shed to save me,
“H” is for her heart of purest gold,
“E” is for her eyes, with love-light shinning,
“R” means right, and right she’ll always be,
Put them all together, they spell
“MOTHER”
A word that means the world to me

final decision...im the most stupid who still believe.

2009-04-22T15:56:00.006+08:00

wei nan him??is who wei nan who??did u 2 ever think and care bout my feeling when u 2 wei nan me??did u 2 care bout me when u 2 li yong me???u always shi tan wo.did i always do that frequently???did u ever try 2 save with ur zhen xin??i save u scold.u save,did i ever scold u??

they all r rite!im stupid/if u reli want to b with me u will change those habit that make me xin han.stupid i still believe u.

this is ur final decision.ok.i quit blog.disppear from ur world.happy???!

change 4 other gal nt me??ok..

if u still read this blog,then this is 4 u

2009-04-22T11:52:00.004+08:00

沈修安,你如果用的是激将法,未免也太小看我了吧.曾经挽回.是你自己说你要专心课业.我会影响到你.是你自己说你找到会珍惜你的人了.所以我干嘛要跟别人争.现在要我挽回是不可能的事.除非你愿意改变.自己会讲阿胜什么什么,自己又不见的办到总之,你不改变,我是不会回到你身边的.不想失去我?到你真的不想失去我时,才这么告诉我吧.会不会有遗憾,随便你啦,我不管了拉.

u may choose 2 give up.im ok with that now.used 2 it.if u reli want me to be with u,im sure that u reli willing 2 change.if nt,jus let this be like this,since u ever say time can cure the scar caused by the relationship.bcos of u i bcome tough.thanks a lot.

u willing 2 sacrifice but i don wanna u 2 injure or have accident.
i don hope that smtg happen 2 u.if u wanna save the relationship,u sud think bout wat i said this few days if u can remember wat is said.
if nt,everything jus maintain this situation.

""-_-,i reli nvr like raymond...if that time i din say like this,u wont help him...complicated situation..im lazy 2 explain..and gt difficulties 2 discuss here...and i don think my explaination is still important 4 u le ba..

最重要的是过程

2009-04-21T17:49:00.001+08:00

刚开始一段感情,两个人相爱不相爱并不重要.最重要的是过程,如何从喜欢到相爱.过程是最美最甜蜜最幸福的回忆,也是最精彩最重要的一部分.在过程中,两个人会遇到不一样的难题问题.都没关系,重要的是两个人愿意一起面对.

we 2 can be close fren agn or nt,is nt important 4 me anymore.bcos,the moment he think he need me as his close fren,he will find me automatically.so I wont obtain this place myself.i wont occupied others place.i will jus stand far away,and lend my hand only If necessary.i also don want 2 compete with other gals.its mine it will be mine,if its nt mine,it will nvr be mine.im tired 2 compete with other gals.im lazy 2 think will I be dumped 1 day.

I have did all I have promised.i can live without guilty and regret now.he can or cant c also nt important now.当他说他找到会珍惜他的人时就该是我放手的时候.但我却托了那么多个月.现在他终于作出决定了.也好.与其暧昧不明,倒不如,直接点.我给自己的期限也快到了.所以...我不会去挽回,因为挽不挽回结果都还是一样.我们两个人之间,其实最无辜的是raymond.我俩不该把他扯进来.sori,Raymond.the truth is b4 u in relationship with shi,I ever dui ni you hao gan nia.thats all.ntg more than that.haven reach like.he thought there r smtg between we 2.so I jiang cuo jiu cuo.this is the best choice 4 him.since less ppl zhu fu.

unbelieveable...thank you..

2009-04-21T17:47:00.000+08:00

1.
有个平凡的女孩,名盘上,吉星残破不全,而且许多凶星全落在夫妻宫上.拥有这种名盘的女子绝对不适合恋爱或是结婚,只要她一与异性交往,便会灾厄缠身,大小祸事不断,终至走上劳燕分飞一途.汤诺执迷不悟继续交往下去,轻则遭遇血光之灾,重则招来横祸,赔上性命.打从她初尝恋爱滋味开始,她便发现,自己只要一谈恋爱,就会发生祸事的诡异状况.初恋时,她怀着满心的期待,和心仪的学长到餐厅约会,没想到才刚踩上餐厅的木造阶梯,便因阶梯年久失修,当场从二楼狠狠摔下去,闹正当送到医院住院三天,两人之间的情愫未萌芽,便硬生生喊卡.之后她又与同班的白马王子交往,却在约会途中出了车祸,腰椎受创,坐了半年轮椅,险些半身不遂,只得再次含泪分手.之后的每次恋爱,也毫无幸免,,简直可以用爱情灾难片来形容.即使她不相信宿命天遣之谈,却也不得不迷信的到处求神问佛.而她也终于从众多算命是口中,得知自己注定孤独一世的特殊命格.有个算命师告诉她,要破解这样的命格,就是找出她的命定情人,与他在一起然后结成连理…...

*我会很爱那个男子如果在他知道我有这种特殊的命格后,还愿意与我在一起,就算有一天必须承受市区我的痛,他还是愿意与我一起.这才是爱.
*另一个情形,如果,和我在一起,他的好运气会转到我身上,我会越来越好运,他的好运气会开始减少,他还是执意要与我一起,我也会很爱他.

当我开始这一段感情时,我开始有好的运气,开心的日子也越来越多.认识的人也越来越多.接近我的人更是越来越多.虽然只有短短的两个月,但已足够.虽然不能天长地久,至少曾经拥有.也谢谢愿意分享你的好运.

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2009-04-20T19:57:00.000+08:00

在一段感情里,两个人为什么要互相猜疑呢?在我最近看的一部戏里,它说,是因为两个人都不懂什么是爱..或许吧..也或许两个人都爱的不够深..当然每个人都有不一样的答案..安是说因为在乎所以猜疑..每个人都有不一样的标准..所以这个问题永远都没有正确的答案..
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我虽然没有爱过你但至少我还有喜欢你.你需要说那些话来伤害我吗.你需要这样来讲我吗.我外表看起来坚强不代表我不会哭不会伤心.如果你这是试探我还在在乎你你的确成功了.这是报复我吗?报复我不回应你的爱吗?我试过找你好好坐下谈谈.但你应我什么?你给我什么回应?现在演变成这样又不是我要的..我也没叫你要回我的部落格阿.干吗要讲到好像我叫你看了就要回应,.我只不过写些我的心事我的遭遇我的想法在里头..难道我错了吗?之前还在一起的确是写给你看..让你多了解我..现在我就不能当成我的日记吗?不行我就不要用啦.何必让你为难..我又不是那么不识相的人..要不然以后你觉得你看了我的部落格会承受不了那就不要看咯..将辛苦干嘛…喜欢你就一定要跟你一起吗?你有那些好朋友都胜过一个女朋友啦..我都是多余的..如果你的从新开始是让彼此都没有任何的感觉那我可以如你所愿成全你.

lucky or un4tunate?hell or heaven??angel or devil???

2009-04-20T19:56:00.000+08:00

this morning,smth happened.donno it can be counted as an accident or nt.on the way back,the car suddenly lost control.when I brake,it cant stopped.车就这样撞向一旁.i thought I will injured.huu...scary..feel like wanna cry..T.T..till now..im still in shock...my soul haven totally came back..haha..i will absent from school 2day..

sad..

2009-04-20T16:49:00.000+08:00

I saw a gal and a guy.I noe them.Both of them very close.Its ok both of them close with each other.BUT THE PROBLEM IS,THE GUY HAS GF!The gal noe this 2.I look down at both of them.that guy treat his gf very good.and his action shows that he love his gf very much.but y?y he do so?y he come out with another gal but nt his gf?he sud keep distance with others gal,rite?guys and gals have responsibility 2 keep distance with gals when in relationship.That gal noe he has gf.she sud also keep distance with him..y she still act like this?还大庭广众打那个男的屁股..哦天啊!怎么会有这样的人?b4,shes 1 of my close fren..i was surprise that she became like this.

kong bu..lonely...sweet words...

2009-04-19T21:26:00.001+08:00

昨天,帝宫停电.许多店都提早关了.我自己一个人,漫无目的的在楼上走走,逛逛,感觉还蛮恐怖的.这让我觉得更痛苦更孤单更寂寞..好像我被这个世界遗弃了..突然有两个人跟在我后面,然后一直跟我说话,问一些我听不太懂的问题,吓死我了!幸好跑的快..以后我再也不敢一个人逛逛了..

sweet words I ever heard...

mostly,guys are sweet living things.they will act sweet,say sweet words...different guys said different sweet words...all these r words that guys ever said 2 me...no matter its true or nt..i will still say ...thank you..
♀no matter wat happen,I will always be here
♂no matter how,I will always have free time 4 u
♀pls stay with me,no matter wat happen
♂I will love u 4ever
♀I love u mare than my family
♂pls don leave me,I cant live without u
♀marry me,I will take care of u,treat u nicer than any1
♂I will wait u 4ever
♀u r my angel
♂I don wanna lost u
♀I willing lend my shoulder and ear 2 u when necessary
♂I willing 2 give up everything jus 2 be with u
♀when I have u by my side,everything in this world becomes meaningless
♂if u die,I will follow u,I willing 2 die with u
♀if I lose u,I wont in relationship anymore,bcos I love u
♂你是我的幸运之神,为我带来好运气
♀因为有了你,我的人生变的更完美更完整
♂u r a nice gal,promise me that u will nvr 4gt me
........
i jus can remember these at this moment...old liao..4gtful...

我认为这个世界已没有任何东西是值得我留恋了.这个世界上也没有任何人事物让我觉得遗憾.如果有一天我就这么突然消失在这个世界上,应该也不会有任何影响吧.没有人会为了我的死,而想跟着死.没有人会为了我而伤心.若有,会伤心的人也不多.伤心也只是暂时性.过不久就会渐渐的忘了我.

a reply..

2009-04-19T21:21:00.002+08:00

i noe look at gal is guys habit!did i say u cant?!did i ever stop u?!u r the 1 who give up this relationship,ok?!the msg u sent still in my phone!need 2 have a look c who is the 1 who give up?!u can say anything u want.but i still have evidence 2 prove that u r the 1 who give up.

18 of april: to ang

2009-04-19T21:20:00.000+08:00

Ang,

At work,no matter wat happen,no matter how unhappy u r,of cos, u sud act like ntg happen.well,problem at work,I cant help u much.cos I donno wat happen.i can jus listen 2 u. maybe this is nt enough 4 u,but that’s wat I can do.sick,I also cant help.i can only wish u recover soon.u r a teenager,without gf,u will noe how 2 take care of urself.受委屈但却还要忍的那种感觉有多难受?u think I nvr experienced that?i live in this kind of life more than 1 year!worst than u!

be strong.be tough.gt up.i think,im jus a normal fren of urs,that play unimportant role in ur life.u ever told me,u will share ur problem unhappiness with ur close frens.so ur close fren play important role now.wat I do become meaningless,2 much 4 u.and u wont appreciate.still remember wat I told u,I ever said that I wont give out or do anything if I noe that person don need and appreciate it.im also a selfish gal.sorry.wat I can do is I can share ur problem or fan nao if u want.

another thing is,don in relationship jus bcos u feel lonely or stress.u might hurt that gal.u might hurt urself.don rush 2 gt in relationship.think b4 u take action.不要太执着于天使.u might gt hurt.try 2 understand 1st.love(boy and gal nt family)is jus part of life.without it, u still have family.it is nt easy 2 find the 1 who suit us.but I believe every1 will bump into at least 1 that suit us.

一个拥抱,真的能安慰一个人吗?若能,若真有效,我愿给你个拥抱..我也只能帮这么多..

i realised...

2009-04-18T21:49:00.003+08:00

在现实生活中,每一天,每个人都会有不一样的经历.有开心的,有伤心的,有希望的,有失望的,有绝望的.因人而异.
感情(爱),只是人生中的一部分.但每一天都有好多人为了感情而自杀,谋杀,虐待,绑架.......
在感情里,哪种人值得等待/喜欢/爱?哪种人又不值得等待/喜欢/爱呢?每个人都有不一样的答案..
♀一个很喜欢很喜欢你的人, 是值得等待/喜欢/爱的.
♂一个很爱很爱你的人,是值得等待/喜欢/爱的
♀一个会为你处处着想的人是值得等待/喜欢/爱的
♂一个以你为重,不自私的人是值得等待/喜欢/爱的
♀一个真正关心你的人,是值得等待/喜欢/爱的
♂一个会听你说话的人,是值得等待/喜欢/爱的
♀一个会把你说的话放在心上的人,是值得等待/喜欢/爱的
♂一个真正相信你的人, 是值得等待/喜欢/爱的
♀一个自私的人只为自己想,是不值得等待/喜欢/爱的
♂一个不会专心听你说话的人,是不值得等待/喜欢/爱的
♀一个不会把你说的话放在心上的人,是不值得等待/喜欢/爱的
♂一个不会放心思在你身上的人, 是不值得等待/喜欢/爱的
♀一个不会珍惜你的付出,看不到你所作的一切的人, 是不值得等待/喜欢/爱的

一个很喜欢很喜欢你, 很疼很爱你的人,会为你处处着想的人, 以你为重, 不自私的人, 关心你的人, 会听你说话的人, 会把你说的话放在心上的人,珍惜你,珍惜你的付出,珍惜你所作的一切的人,是值得去等待,去喜欢甚至去爱的.要紧紧的抓住这个人,不要轻易放手..
一个自私的人只为自己想, 不会专心听你说话的人, 不会把你说的话放在心上的人, 不会放心思在你身上的人, 不会珍惜你的付出,看不到你所作的一切的人, 是不值得去等待,去喜欢甚至去爱的.放开这个人.放手,双方都会觉得解脱自由.这个人不再值得去守候.不必留这个人在你身边.

其实,等待是好或不好?有个人说过,有时候,我们或许会经历几次的失败,因为没有人是完美的..但不能因为一次的失败就放弃...但有些东西是我们无论如何都得不到的,所以我们不该浪费我们的时间或精神..不放弃是好的..但对一个不可能的事不放弃,对那个人来说是很笨的....

everything doesn’t goes well everyday...Therefore,sometimes we will gt sad,hurt,suffers and disappointed with life...However, we may nt gain the thing we want,we still gain the experience when we put our effort/energy 2 obtain it..we may fail sometime,since no1 is perfect..but,don simply give up jus bcos u had fail once..but there r things which are impossible 4 us 2 obtain,so,we must nt waste our effort or time on it..nvr give up is a good thing 2 have...if 1 thing is impossible 2 have, there r better things or similar 2 it ..we may aim 4 it..it might nt perfectly meet wat we want, we still can gt satisfaction from it..

有一个男孩很喜欢一个女孩,可是他不敢说出来,所以只好整天作弄女孩,想让女孩知道他只作弄她也就是说对她有好感...可是对于男孩的作弄,女孩觉得男孩很讨厌,老是作弄她…日子久了,女孩渐渐习惯了男孩的作弄也觉得男孩的作弄好象想表达些什么但她猜不透..有一天,男孩没去学校,女孩心急如焚,只好翘课去找男孩,女孩也明白了其实自己会习惯男孩的作弄是因为喜欢上男孩了...去到男孩的家里,看见哭成泪人的男孩妈妈,男孩妈妈说,看到一封信息:can u be my girl fren? 是男孩出事之前发送的,女孩哭了,也明白男孩是因为一边写信一边过马路才遇上车祸的...<<世上最远的距离并不是相隔两地,而是我站在你面前你却不知道我爱你>>...珍惜爱你的人,不要等到她/他绝望离去才后悔...

2day..i accept the truth and fact that guys reli can give up 1 easily.they may say they love u this second,next second they like/accept other gal.i don like my bf close with other gal.but all ex do so...haizzz...

i might change myself,my lifestyle soon...the moment i change,i wont look back anymore...when i give up everything...i will jus look 4ward...the moment everything bcome meaningless 4 me...ntg no1 can touch my heart anymore..

maybe its good 4 every1...4 now...

haizzzz....

2009-04-16T14:34:00.002+08:00

b4,i read ur blog of 15/04,ur image in my heart still good.but after i read wat u read,u....still nvr wake up..u still nvr try 2 walk into my world.b4 this,i nvr think that u r nt qualified 2 say u love me.but now,yup...U R NT QUALIFIED.i donno u have changed or u r always like this jus that i donno..

b4,i think that u r a mature guy..but now,i doubt my judgement 2 u.u nvr try 2 understand me,u nvr try 2 change,u nvr understand the situation,u nvr understand the reason......u nvr think 4 me..u nvr zhong shi me...wat 4 u ask me 2 bcome ur gf???4 fun???seems like u haven prepare 2 in relationship.don fool me!i will be hurt!

nvr ask me 2 be with u if u r nt prepared,if u wanna live in ur world only,if u don wanna try 2 understand me..

and u told me wat i done nt correct,u will tell me..but u never..if u din tell how others r going 2 improve?maybe i have problem,but,think y...and remember that if u din tell,i will nvr noe wat is the problem.

* i hope that next time i chat with u,u don have the attitude/behavior that 'he' has.

歌曲：不会爱
歌手：飞轮海专辑：双面飞轮海

只好让礼物安静躺在我口袋
宁愿看着你跟他快乐聊到笑开
当友情两字不足形容我情感
心情都随你转弯
耳机他轻轻吻我耳朵爱情更听不完
适合我们的从不是浪漫
你不会爱我的爱我明白
你的最爱那一块哪天我才存在
我不会爱你的爱受伤害
所以宁愿安静的等待

只剩下冰冷空气陪我一整晚
寂寞却多到塞车根本无法动弹
一翻身我在半夜突然就醒来
梦里你的唇柔软

爱你我慢不下来没有哪一天例外
跟自己比快我会赶上你未来
不怕空白我继续等待

歌曲:消失的彩虹
主唱:卓文萱专辑:《翻滚吧!蛋炒饭》
作词:陈信延作曲:宋世尧

我看见你的瞳孔
看见的那片天空
你指尖尽头
架空属於我的梦
那是清澈的星河
那是橘色的云朵
遥远的天国
建筑这一道彩虹
我以为天是黑的
你忽然放了烟火
我才发现我
生命可以很闪烁
你把我眼底的寂寞
彩绘成缤纷的宇宙
跟在你身后
带我静静遨游

请不要放开我的双手
不要缺席我的以后
请留给我
慢慢消失的那一道彩虹
已经习惯你的双手
牵着我的那种温柔
只有你懂
我会流泪是因为最深处的感动
请不要关掉我的镜头
不要熄灭我的以后
还给黑夜
永不消失的那一道彩虹
已经习惯我的双手
你能感受我的颤抖
只有你懂
我会流泪是因为最深处的感动

在感情里,太多的期待, 到头来又是自己受伤害,一个人的心灵能够承受多少次的狼来了和打击? 相识,相爱,背叛….不堪的爱情,再次相遇时,竟然还是那么痛…少有人能完完全全原谅一个曾经如此背叛..但有多少人能了解恨一个人很浪费体力与时间呢?又有多少人能了解原谅一个人,不恨一个人很难?又有多少人能了解原谅一个人,不恨一个人,需要时间? 上帝为你关上一道门,必定为你打开一扇窗.在离开爱人身边的第一个月,通常她/他都在干什么?每晚躲在棉被里哭?在工作或上课时发呆?跟朋友狂欢饮酒麻痹自己的感受?每个人都有自己的方法…但有效吗? 失恋没什么大不了,我们失恋时,都以为不会再爱了,可是当爱情造访时,我们就会发现,其实还是有爱的能力. 爱情的力量大..这是真的吗?恋爱真的可以让五感五官都甜蜜吗?我只知道失恋的人在热恋的人群中,感觉很痛苦. 许多在感情曾受过伤害的人,都以为自己不会把心交出去,也以为自己不会再有能力狠狠爱一场,然而再遇上爱时,自己建筑的理智墙,早已完全失去作用

歌曲:换季
歌手：金莎专辑：<<原来我不帅>>电视
曲: brenna 词:林秋离

是泪滴结束每段感情
要时间忘记想忘记
其实埋藏在心里
雨滴结束每个冬季
晒不干过去就面对你
喜怒哀乐的回忆
听天空晴朗开始好天气
别在忧郁宛如心情也天晴
失恋的人就换季脱下过期爱情
突醒的眼里看见发亮的自己哦多美丽
受伤的人就换季春夏秋冬轮替
总有你的美景等待下一期下一次天晴

雨滴结束每个冬季
晒不干过去就面对你
喜怒哀乐的回忆
听天空晴朗开始好天气
别在忧郁宛如心情也天晴
失恋的人就换季脱下过期爱情
突醒的眼里看见发亮的自己哦多美丽
受伤的人就换季春夏秋冬轮替
总有你的美景等待下一期下一次天晴

失恋的人就换季脱下过期爱情
突醒的眼里看见发亮的自己哦多美丽
受伤的人就换季春夏秋冬轮替
总有你的美景等待下一期下一次天晴

属于~舍不得

2009-04-15T14:48:00.002+08:00

i nvr blame u or hate u no matter how u treat me.it's tired 2 hate 1.if in ur heart,im an angel,i will always be angel.i can also talk or chat with u if u have difficulties,unhappiness...im always here 4 every1...i will nvr talk bad bout u cos i noe it's hurt..

and from the msg that u sent wrong 2 me yesterday,now i noe y many ppl don like me..the way u write/say,reli will make every1 misunderstand and thought that i asked u 2 tell me wat they tell u..""=.=..i nvr ask u must tell me wat they say,rite?y u say so and make every1 think that im busybody and wanna noe their secret?y u wanna destroy my image?i hope that u noe wat r u doing...

歌曲:属于
歌手：梁静茹
作词:陈没作曲:鸦片丹
专辑:(电影爱情左灯右行主题曲)

我坚持的都值得坚持吗
我所相信的就是真的吗
如果我赶追求我就敢拥有吗
而如果都算了不要呢

或许吧或许我永远都不会遇见他
或许吧或许我太天真了吧
属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力

属于风的那就去飞翔吧
属于海洋的那就汹涌吧
属于我们的爱该来的就来吧
为什么不敢呢不要呢?

是他吧命中早就注定了的那个他
是他吧他原来就在这里啊

属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力

属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力

一段感情,是要靠双方面的努力才能维持下去.
在一段感情里,想要成为他/她心中的痛,想要他/她一辈子都记得你,那就在爱情最美丽,最甜蜜的时候结束吧.那就是在你们都还喜欢或碍着对方时.只有这样,才能不被当成厨余回收.到双方度对方没感觉甚至恨对方时,渐渐的它们都回旋着忘了彼此.

i wanna say thank you 2 u that u always mention that u will always by my side,no matter how.but,do u think u manage to do that?actually and honestly,u nvr do that,u noe?

歌曲:舍不得
歌手：弦子专辑：不爱最大

第一次你陪我坐着我的手心是空空的
我知道那些简讯声你努力藏着还怕我难过
不追问到底为什么是我最后的温柔
想笑着附和说分开是好的
但我们却怎么一起哭了

我舍不得可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得只是该停了
没有我你要好好的

我舍不得最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的错了就错了
不用担心我我不爱你了

至少你记忆里的我是微笑的
亲爱的有你牵着我的那些日子
真的好快乐

我舍不得可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得只是该停了
没有我你要好好的
我舍不得最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的错了就错了
不用担心我我走了

suddenly think bout this.....

2009-04-14T15:38:00.003+08:00

原谅是一个微笑,让所有人幸福快乐.记恨是一个人的坚持,让所有人不幸不快乐.
i hope that im an angel,who can bring happiness 2 every1 around me.

没有拥有过,何来失去的痛楚?每个人都有追求爱情的自由;不论美丑,无关性别,只要是自己选择的,就必须自己承受..
no matter wat is/are the effects of our decision,we must learn from the lesson.

不晓得哪个作家说过,当两个你觉得是对的人一起出现时,记得选择当你痛苦的时候,会听你诉苦的那一个.偏偏我们都习惯把美好的留给最心爱的人,而负责听取痛苦倾诉的通常是红颜知己这是我最不能忍受的..既然是相爱的,好与不好,都该和另一半分享,这可让一对情侣共患难让感情更好,也可表现出信任对方
maybe many ppl cant accept my opinion,idea,mind,thinking bout this.but this is me.everytime,b4 i in relationship, i will tell the partner bout this.can accept then i will accept him,if cant, then we can still be fren.4 me,it's better that jiang qing chu b4 in relationship,so that less misunderstandings will occur in the future.

爱一个人就非得将他留在身边吗?爱一个人却不能留在他身边更伤悲..
In relationship with a person that nvr like or love u is the most serious in this world,that u will feel hurt,pain,suffer,unhappy....

爱与恨仅在一线间.爱让一对有恨的爱人,得到救赎,爱与恨不再是一线之隔,爱已经完全将恨给包容..
it is better that 2 love 1 than hate 1.hate 1 person is wasting time.it is wasting energy 2.u will nvr feel happy if u hate 1.so y dont we 4give and 4gt how others betrayed,hurt,cheat us....

歌曲：:爱太痛] 专辑：magik great hits 新
歌手：吴克群

吃不能吃睡不能睡
没有了你全都不对
我都学不会把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠

笑不能笑哭不敢哭
人不像人鬼不像鬼
朋友都说这不过失恋
但我却连呼吸都胆怯

能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把爱割舍
...我不能睡...

我不能够不能够不爱了

disappointed~

2009-04-14T15:35:00.001+08:00

from wat i read,i reallised that u nvr change.u r still selfish alviss.u still think bout urself only.u still blame me.u still that im the 1 who totally wrong.u jus think it is like this but u nvr think y is it like this.

u still find thousands of reasons 4 wat u have done.bad habit is nt a big problem 4 me.but attitude may be a problem in a relationship.

u said u don wan 2 lose me.but u have lost me.remember!u said u wont regret!u jus mind will it affect ur result?but u nvr think will it affect my education!u ever said don say give chance or nt..u bu xi han.FInE!that week is the last chance 4 u.but remember wat u have said.if u don remember i can show wat u have said that time 2 u.

u r the 1 decide 2 give up.fine.i respect ur decision.i did ask u think 1 more time agn bout ur decision.remember wat u said..u sure that u wanna do so.

don always jus know how 2 blame others.don always scold me.think b4 u said anything.don always jus think that im always the 1 who is wrong.............

当你~

2009-04-07T15:46:00.000+08:00

♀当你伤害别人时，你就该想到后果
♂当你在伤害你喜欢或爱的人时，你就该检讨自己，你真的喜欢或爱她/他吗？
♀当你许下诺言时，你就该遵守
♂当你喜欢或爱的人，离开你时，你就该想想问题到底在哪里
♀当你说你相信某个人时，你就该真正的去相信
♂当你再作决定前，你就该想想将来你会否后悔
♀当你说你不会再后悔你会否失去某个人时，你就该知道他/她总有一天会放弃你
♂当你说你放弃他/她（因为怕影响成绩）的同时，你可又想过你的话会否影响他/她的成绩
♀当你说你需要你爱的人陪在你身边时，你可曾想过他/她需要时你有否陪在他/她身边
♂当你在责怪别人时，你可曾想过或许问题是在你身上
♀当你真正闲空冷静下来想想，你可曾想过或许他/她已放下了你
♂当你失去某个对你很重要的人时，你可曾想过原因
♀当你过了一段时间，才想挽回/补救某些事/人，你可曾想过一切已太迟
♂当你想把一个人让出去时，你可曾想过他/她的感受。他/她是人不是物品
♀当你怀疑喜欢/爱你的人时，你可曾想过你正拿支针刺进他/她的心
♂当你套他/她的话时，你可曾想过总有一天他/她会对你有恐惧感/阴影
♀当你只顾会否影响自己的同时，你可曾想过他/她的感受
♂当你认为你自己已改变但其实你并没有，你可曾想过再在一起最后还是会分开
♀当你强迫他/她接受一个他/她不喜欢的人，他/她永远不会幸福
♂当你一直说服他/她接受原来的你（虽然他/她希望你改变，但你并没有真正有去改变的意思），你是在逼他/她喝下慢性毒药，或拿着把刀逼他/她自杀

男女关系好复杂，或许单身很寂寞，想说话时找不到信任或愿意听你说话的人，有问题时没人陪在你身边安慰你鼓励你，当你想出去走走散散心看看电影时没人陪你，但若没把握还是单身最好，因为不用担心会被伤害或伤害人。。
若你无法遵守你的承诺就别轻易给予你的承诺，这只会让别人更不信任你。若你是个自私的人就别轻易进入一段感情，你在伤害他/她，到最后或许你还害了自己。在一段感情里，我们必须兼顾到好多方面。。我们必须确保对方都可以感觉幸福。。我们不能自私。。我们一定要懂得珍惜。。失去了，或许它永远不会再回来了。爱情是门很难的学问，但我相信只要有心，就一定学得会，就一定可以轻易的了解。。

pls check with me...don simply judge other if u r nt sure..

2009-04-07T15:18:00.000+08:00

hey..idin on9 4 a long time liao k...that saturday i was at home the whole day..so impossible 4 me 2 on9..plus,my home no wireless...i din on9,how i noe u find me???!!!!but my sis said i was on9..so,some1 used my account or it is virus or.....??u always like this..always suspect me..in relationship like this,be fren also like this...always say im how bad how bad...in ur eyes,im always bad...T.T

life...

2009-04-06T17:03:00.001+08:00

我常自问,我满意现在的生活吗?没有亲密爱人,没有喜欢的人,没有可以谈心的朋友,我真的可以过得很好吗?我很讨厌这样的生活…真的很讨厌…真的很累…但,这对每个人都好…没有人会再受伤,没有人再伤心,没有人会再哭泣,心碎的机会也会减低…也不会有第三者的出现…有时候,机会错过了就是错过了…它再也不会回来了…后悔也没用…但有时候,有些事情是还有机会补救的..当机会来了,就要懂得把握…不要等到错过了才来后悔哭泣…如果真的错过了,就接受事实吧…勇敢的面对不要逃避…或许还会有下一次的机会…人类是个奇怪的生物…当拥有的时候就不懂得珍惜,当失去时才想珍惜,才懂得它的可贵…

歌曲名:路太弯
演唱:潘玮柏
专辑:玩酷

我在这里计算终点的距离
下一站有没有更期待的结局
眼闭上眼看不看的见过去
看不看的见原来那个你
和幸福的关系
路太弯梦在转错过的人已不在
以为我能习惯一个人安全感
路太弯爱在转明知忘记会很难
我一路上跌跌撞撞
却找不回拥抱的形状

眼闭上眼看不看的见过去
看不看的见原来那个你
和幸福的关系

路太弯梦在转错的人已不在
以为我能习惯一个人安全感
路太弯爱在转明知忘记会很难
我一路上跌跌撞撞
却找不回拥抱的形状

付出过是不是就换的回希望
呼吸太乱世界太宽
缘分毕竟太短

路太弯梦在转错的人已不在
以为我能习惯一个人安全感
路太弯爱在转明知忘记会很难
我一路上跌跌撞撞
却找不回拥抱的形状
我一路上跌跌撞撞
却找不回拥抱的形状

歌手:周杰伦
歌名:给我一首歌的时间
专辑:魔杰座
曲: jay

雨停下的天空
灰的更加老旧
你说你不懂为何在这世界上
我晒干了承诺
灰的更冲动
就算这次做错也只是怕错过
在一起吵
分开了错
是不是说没有做完的梦最错
雨落的好
我能承受
在最后的出口
再爱过了才用
能不能给我一首歌的时间
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的回忆里
不用太多失眠
如果你想忘记我也能适应

能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪
让他留在雨天
如果你怀疑的心依然勇气当作鄙夷

被淋湿的天空
灰的更加老旧
你说你不懂为何在这时牵手
我晒干了承诺
灰的会很冲动
就算这次做错也只是怕错过
在一起吵
分开了吵
是不是说没有做完的梦最错
雨落的好
我能承受
在最后的出口
再爱过了才有用

能不能给我一首歌的时间
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的回忆里
不用太多失眠
如果你想忘记我也能适应

能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪
让他留在雨天
如果你怀疑的心依然勇气当作鄙夷

你说我不该不该在这个时候
说了我爱你
要怎么证明我没有说过的力气
请告诉我暂停算不算放弃
我只有阴天的回忆

能不能给我一首歌的时间
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的回忆里
不用太多失眠
如果你想忘记我也能适应

能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪
让他留在雨天
如果你怀疑的心依然勇气当作鄙夷

歌名:心跳
歌手:王力宏
专辑:心跳

想跟我吵架我没那么无聊
不懂得道歉我没那么聪明
好想要回到我们的原点

你又在哭泣我给不了安慰
我又在摇头有那么点后悔
爱情的发展已难以回头却无法往前走

但身不由己出现在胸口
两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪

你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好

想跟我吵架我没那么无聊
不懂得道歉我没那么聪明
好想要回到我们的原点

但身不由己出现在胸口
两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪

你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好

你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好

♥女/男朋友不应该对男/女朋友怎样♥
♀不可以拿分手开玩笑~原因~他/她会认为你想和他分手
♂不可以故意让他/她吃醋~原因~他/她会觉得你很花心
♀不可以常常和别的男/女孩聊电话或sms~原因~很明显你不爱他了
♂不可以常找借口说没空~原因~感觉好象逃避他/她…就会慢慢陌生
♀不可以对男/女朋友太冷淡~原因~不管你多呆,也不可以!他/她会觉得你不爱他/她了
♂不可以常拿前男/女友或男/女性朋友来比较
♀不可以做男/女朋友不喜欢的事~原因~很不重视他/她
♂不可以说了做不到~原因~没有责任感
♀不可以忘记男/女朋友对你所说的话~原因~会让他/她感觉你不在乎他/她
♂不可以对男/女朋友说谎~原因~诚实最重要了!如果他骗你,你会有什么感受呢?

This world is so big…it takes us few years just to discover and travel on it through every single area and tiny spaces that was presence…However, in these vast spaces, where is the place which is really belongs to us? The main question would be, is this a place for us, human, to own and lived in? If yes, then enjoy the time and spaces fully…If no, wish that all of us could find a place where we do belongs no matter how big the place is…since, it’s a prove of us being here and had spent our life with our own will…good luck in finding it…all the best in your days…

written by, mond…copied T.T by yan

the 1st guy i like...

2009-04-03T09:14:00.000+08:00

i met the 1st i guy i like yesterday..it happened few years ago..he might be a quite good bf..if that time i accept him,all the unhappy past will nt exist in my life..y i so stupid?y i always let my happiness slip away?haizz..at last,we exchange our phone num..but we din contact each other..maybe he had gf..maybe he is chasing another gal..maybe he found his beloved..anyway..im glad 4 him..i feel glad 2 meet him agn in uni life 2..thanks a lot tat he ever like me and treat me so nice..thanks that bcos of him,i noe and gain more frens...

2009-04-03T09:00:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was my sis's frens birthday.They bought a chocolate cake at secret recipe.I sent 2 st co 4 them 2 celebrate the birthday...birthday cake and st co...remind me bout f4 f5 life and all the past...happy sad disappointment hurt....16 and 17 birthday might be one of my good and sweet memory..now..i reli don reli like 2 celebrate my birhtday..it might remind me bout the past..everytime i think back..i feel that my heart is bleeding..something sharp,like needle,is piercing my heart..really hurt..he was the 1st 1 i love..he ever brought happiness 2 me..but he brought more sadness and disappointment 2 me..y?is it he has changed?or he is like this,jus that i nvr realise that..but al those r my past..i will nvr go back 2 him anymore..i wont escape..since i dont like and love him at all now..im glad that i have no more feeling 4 him now...i will accept and live better than him..i will learn from lesson..and gt up from where i fell down..

oh no...!! T.T wat 2 do.....

2009-03-23T16:39:00.000+08:00

T.T wasai!! suddenly many ppl find me and talk bout him?hmm...seems like when in relationship, he still very close with other gals..when chase me still close with other gals..when wanna save the relationship, still close with other gals..when try 2 win back my heart, still...close with other gals..T.T I really donno who sud I trust...i donno who is lying..im gtting lazier 2 find out..the truth only they themselves noe..

when 1 lose his/her beloved, will he/she regret? will he/she cry? will he/she save? will he/she feel released from stress? when 1 tell u he/she wont regret 2 lose u, wat will u do? dump him/her la...haha..kidding...maybe u can choose 2 keep distance? maybe u may stay away from him/her? maybe u may disappear from his/her world?well...now,i wont hate any1,bcos its unnecessary.its wasting my time and energy..now..i have few path way 2 choose..i can escape from reality,i can accept wat has happened, i can choose 2 face wat is going 2 happen or is happening, i can try 2 solve the problems..i can also choose 2 4gt everything..now i haven decide yet..if i choose 2 escape,bcome a coward, i might stop using this blog..if i choose 2 accept wat has happened, everything will remain unchange like now, and i will be more quiet..i can choose 2 face wat is going 2 happen or is happening,i will change back to the ching yan like in january that many ppl like..if i choose 2 try 2 solve the problems,i might change agn,change 2 another 1 based on others comment and how they want me 2 be..if i choose 2 4gt everything,everything changed that i will change all those that can contact me..of cos, i wont that stupid choose the last 1...^^

many ppl comments 4 him is..he is a selfish guy that he nvr want 2 go in details in2 everything,some1 who follow his own mindset and feelings in doing things..well..i donno..if this is the truth and fact,i also wont blame any1 in this world..bcos there r many posibilities..maybe he scared 2 b hurt..maybe i hurt him accidentally..maybe his frens advice...maybe bcos of sum1 say bad bout me..maybe he jus like but nt love..maybe im nt worth 2 wait...maybe misunderstanding..donno la..jus let it be..

♥好朋友♥是… ,♥爱♥ , 笑一笑

2009-03-23T16:37:00.000+08:00

♥好朋友♥是…
→开心的时候陪你笑
→难过的时候给你抱抱
→有好吃的分你一半
→紧张的时候帮你加油
→有心事找你诉苦
→没有事就八卦哈啦
→血拼饮茶就会想到你
→唱歌不能没有你
=×祝大家×=
≤♥友谊万岁♥≥

♥爱♥
♀爱让我学会了争取
♂爱让我学会了放弃
♀爱让我学会了痛苦
♂爱让我学会了面对
♀爱让我学会了坚强
♂爱让我学会了不要轻易的争取
♀爱让我学会了不要轻易的放弃
♂爱让我学会了不要轻易的承诺
♀爱让我学会了不要轻易的让步
♂爱让我伤得深, 也让我跌得深
♀爱让我爱得深, 也让我痛得深

♥爱♥好矛盾, 但这就是♥爱♥

笑一笑
当面前突然一片黑暗伸手不见五指时,请念: 啊弥陀佛!

如果还是一样,就念: A MEN!

又是一样的黑暗,那就念: ALLAH!

可是没有效果! 该念什么呢?

笨蛋! 去开灯吧!

he hasnt grow up and wake up...disappointed when i found out this..and every1 tell me so..but he din realise""-.- T.T sad 4 him...

2009-03-23T11:38:00.000+08:00

“...gt ppl appreciate me more than u.”
if some1 said this 2 u, wat will u do?wat will u say?wat do u think?wat is ur opinion?wat is ur respond?hmmm...if some1 say this 2 me,I will feel sad.i will think that person is blaming me.i will think that am I occupied sum1 else place?sud I give way?well..some ppl will think that I nvr appreciate wat they have done 4 me.but, can they c I did appreciate..no..no1c it?y?maybe they nvr pay attention.they jus live in their life.they nvr try 2 involve in my life. they nvr observe. they do anything jus depend on their mindset.did they really think bout my feeling..its who nvr appreciate who?no1 can answer this question.bcos human being will nvr totally understand themselves.i jus can say..i wont stop any1 2 gt their happiness.im nt that selfish. I wont stop others 2 gt their happiness jus bcos I don have. if I cant be 2gether with the 1 I like, I will let him go. if he thinks that he cant gt happiness from me, I will still let him go. if he find some1 that appreciate him, I will let him go..i don wan any1 2 suffer.if he thinks that I block his way 2 gt happiness, I will keep distance. I wont blame any1 who cant c how I appreciate them.i wont tell how I appreciate them. maybe there is a problem in the way I like, appreciate,concern 1. but,its ok now. since every1 think that its all my fault. jus let it be ba.. much explanation also wont be accepted. All wat I have done bcome meaningless…means ntg 2 any1 even 4 the 1 I like..seems like nt im the 1 who haven grow up,it’s the 1 who think he has grown up haven grow up and wake up..

cruel reality..

2009-03-23T11:31:00.000+08:00

Oo..i heard that some1 told many ppl that some1 wont bother my things anymore.he don want and will nvr care my things since he think I nvr appreciate.well, that is his opinion.if he wanna think like this, I also cant do anything.i don want 2 argue bout this.im tired 2 explain agn and agn. whenever and wat I ever I said or explained, my words will nvr go into his brain and heart. he will jus think that im giving an excuse.but,wat his close fren said will automatically saved in his mind.even though in relationship, he said he trust me more than others, but everytime, my observations show me that he always suspect me.very unfair..since his fren more important and can affect him more than gf.then y does he still need to in relationship...then,jus let it be.since every1 thinks it is my fault and im bad.i will try my best nt 2 say or do anything that make he worry so that he can do his promise 2 others and wont bcome a jerk..

a test..my ans is 3..but is there any1 stand by my side quietly..?im wondering..

2009-03-23T11:29:00.000+08:00

心理测验:
如果我要你画一张人与鸟的构图,你会怎样画?
1. 画一个人一直看着笼子里的鸟.
2. 画一个人正跑着追那只鸟.
3.画那只鸟停在一个人的肩上或手臂上.
你会想画哪一个呢?

答案:
1.代表你已经有心爱的人了,可是你却没有勇气去追他爱他..
2.代表你所喜欢的人不喜欢你,而且你所喜欢的那个人还在喜欢着且还追着别人..
3.代表有个喜欢你的人永远会一直在你的身边守护着你..而且他不会轻易离开你身边

a paragraph that really touched my heart

2009-03-23T11:27:00.000+08:00

“我不能说我不在乎.”她老实地将自己的想法说出.”但那只是你的过去,我没有必要为了你的过去,而放弃你,就像你没有必要为了自己那段不愉快的过去,而放弃追求幸福的权力.”
“I cant say I reli don mind.”she said.”but that is jus ur past,it’s unnecessary 4 me 2 give u up jus bcos ur past,jus like, it’s unnecessary 4 u 2 give up happiness jus bcos that unhappy past.”
wow,good.i reli like this sentence.but this will jus exist in dream or story.In reality, is that possible that a couple like or love each other without caring or mind about each other? Is that possible that they totally don have any feeling or respond bout their partner’s past?In my opinion, they might say they don mind.but im sure that they will have a bit mind bout their past. 4 some couples, as the time go further, conflict will exist between each other. The past might might stop them 2 love each other.

giving up all the past....

2009-03-19T16:34:00.000+08:00

disappointed 2 this world and human beings...y am i always the 1 been betrayed?y am i always been hurt?y all my frens especially close frens suddenly disappear from my world?y jon treats me cold 2day and the next day cold?y ang disappointed me and cheat me?y ray tell others wat i told him?and he din even think that is his fault?u all din do it purposely?if once or twice,i will trust that u all r nu in purpose.but many times.y?y only yee concern me when im lost and sad?y? y all the ppl i trust become like this?is this u all de true colour?wat is fren 4?that can concern me take care and help me when i have difficulties...y r u all gone whenever im lost and sad?y others r trying to talk bad bout me?did i do smtg?i reli hope that my world is peace.i reli hope that all my frens wont talk bad bout me..i reli hope that all those that i think that they wont talk bad bout me,reli wont...if nt i reli donno wat to do agn...really tired of this life..tired living in this world...

2009-02-23T15:24:00.000+08:00

而我知道
作词:阿信作曲:阿信编曲:五月天
guoqian5201314
冰块还没融化你在看表我笑的尴尬
你说最近很忙改天聊吧那天我在楼下想了很久想你说的话
你说爱情很窄世界很大(而我们应该长大)就这样吧就这样吧
我想我听懂你话中的话而我知道那真爱不一定能白头到老
而我知道有一天你可能就这么走掉
而我知道我知道这一切我全都知道
我就是受不了而我知道我们曾天真的一起哭和笑
而我知道放开手但不知道怎么忘掉
而我知道你走了以后的每一分一秒
却还是这么难熬
ps:生活就是这样爱情不是想象
微笑紧紧咬牙给你祝福你自由飞吧
你说温室没有灿烂的花(你总是很有想法)就这样吧就这样吧
我同意可是我泪如雨下

安,我不是故意伤到你的.但如果我们再继续下去,你会受到更大的伤害.我明白你一个人要面对多方面的压力是很辛苦的.我可以体谅这点.我也可以接受你的坏习惯.但我们之间真的存在着很多问题.沟通,父母.....有时候,我觉得你并不了解我..或许,问题在我身上吧..有可能我已封闭我自己..老实说,我不能接受你一直利用我对你的信任...这已不是一次两次的事了.我真的很累.我一直提醒你,不要利用我对你的信任,那真的很伤我.我选择原谅你.我不怪你.我还是当你是好朋友.我们都在无意中伤到对方,我们算是扯平了吧.在我的观念里,我认为伴侣的存在意义是可以为伴分担烦恼问题分享些开心的..这点我们的观念有很大的不一样咯..我肯定我是不适合你的..或许在这段感情你会觉得遗憾,但不要把这份遗憾带去下一段感情..你一定会找到一个真真正正适合你的女孩..现在还是把书读好吧..如果你想找人聊天,别忘了这里还有个朋友愿意听你诉苦或谈心事^^...

黑色契约(第八号当铺主题曲)
词:jay chan 演唱:杜德伟

黯淡的招牌
我低头迎面而来
街上的灵魂
全部可以买卖
愚蠢的以为
什么自己最爱
那些欲望我静静的主宰
对魔鬼乞讨虚荣的骄傲
黑色的契约像月光下的暗潮
woh
我冰冷地抚摸着你的悲哀
woh~
只是交换没有爱

漆黑的窗外说不出的阴霾
墙上的影子单纯
已经不在
脸上的表情残酷
没有期待
狂风掠过我跟你谁才腐败
对魔鬼乞讨虚荣的骄傲
黑色的契约像月光下的暗潮
woh
我冰冷地抚摸着你的悲哀
woh~
只是交换没有爱

放弃继续都一样
谁主宰谁会快乐谁会受伤
全部将结束在这个地方
手枪在尊严里慢慢上膛
孤寂是我最后的印象
woh
我冰冷地抚摸着你的悲哀
woh~
nono 只是交换没有爱
woh~
你冰冷地凝视着我的悲哀
woh~
只是交换没有爱

过去与缘分

2009-02-23T15:19:00.000+08:00

如果可以从新活多一次,如果一切可以从头开始,我希望我从来没有认识他.不认识他,我就不会受伤害.不受伤害,我就不会不轻易相信一个人.如果有一天,他从这个世界上消失,那该有多好.我想,那时我一定可以放下过去.如果有一天,他得到应有的惩罚那该有多好.但那一天永远都不会到来.我只能不断的活在黑暗中.一直的在黑暗中学习成长.我与raymond的那种缘分的确是我寻找的那种.但并不代表我一定要那种缘.缘是可遇不可求得.

its complicated...

2009-02-05T19:21:00.000+08:00

These 4 days, he kept trying 2 save this relationship. Really Im touched dat he reli care bout this relationship. Luckily, we hurt each other accidentally when we like each other but nt in love. If nt, serious effect will be caused and exist. Haha..if he love me, I reli wont break,cos 2 hurt..and he will suffer..These few days, I have been thinking a lot. 我想, 他值得更好的女子, 虽然, 伤心也觉得可惜, 但若他可找到更好的, 我想值得我放弃.I ever think dat we might be in relationship 1 day. But from his msg 2day, I think dat he has been totally given up. Is it that he is happier now compared 2 the time when in relationship? I kept on asking myself the same question. Maybe ba. He also told me so. Maybe it is better 4 me 2 jus stay behind him or jus became an outsider, don go and disturb his life anymore. But, I confirm dat when he is relationship, I will congrat him and feel happy 4 him. 我会送上我最真诚的祝福.^^
天空不断下着无声的雪
而我只有思念
勉强能温暖黑夜
拥抱离我已经千山万水
每个男人都有
说不出的心碎 oh yeah
我还爱着一个人但愿
回到美好的从前
也许痛的感觉
证明了爱的深浅
不然为什么我还不撤退 oh～
记得爱所有幸福的片段
所以才一直忘记要离开
伸出手继续勇敢付出我的爱
原地不动的等待
就算风把我的头发吹乱
记得爱是我给过的答案
就不再考虑应该不应该
一滴泪落进无边无际的大海
至少我们都活得没有遗憾
只要记得爱就无所谓孤单

Sumtimes, I really think dat I sud nt exist in this world. 我的存在,曾使女友误会男友,朋友做不成朋友...为什么要让这种事发生在我身上?为什么是我?为什么我什么也没做这种事还要牵连到我?为什么要发生这种事让所有人误会我?在这世上我的出现是多余的. 或许我没出现在这世上,许多事情就不会发生了, 许多人之间就不会有那么多误会了吧...

Yesterday morning, he hurt me 1 more time. Y am I so stupid. Y am I still waiting 4 him. Y am I let myself suffer again. Y am I still think that we sud be 2gether again. Y after he hurt me, I still think many reason 4 him 2 4give him again. After that, I switch off my phone cos I still cant find any reason 4 y he treat me so 2 4give him. At nite, from his msg, I noe dat he has decided 2 give up. Although sad, but I still hide any of my feeling. Cos I don wan any1 beside me or around me worry bout me. Sad that we cant be close fren anymore. Jus can be normal fren. HAizzz.......
没力气
没力气
总是懒洋洋地
赖着你
怀里顽皮嬉戏
是该些事情
心里又甜蜜得
不想要不想要
睁开眼睛
我和你频率如此接近
没压力
自在作我自己
第一次感受
这种爱的决心
只想要只想要
和你一起
I Wanna Be With You
爱你好幸福
想要和你建造一个
爱的小屋
I Wanna Be With You
爱你好满足
享受最甜美的束缚
有你的呵护
我不再孤独
我和你频率如此接近
没压力
自在作我自己
第一次感受
这种爱的决心
只想要只想要
和你一起
I Wanna Be With You
爱你好幸福
想要和你建造一个
爱的小屋
I Wanna Be With You
爱你好满足
享受最甜美的束缚
有你的呵护
我不再孤独
I Wanna Be With You
爱你好幸福
想要和你建造一个
爱的小屋
I Wanna Be With You
爱你好满足
享受最甜美的束缚
有你的呵护
我不再孤独
我和你频率如此接近
没压力
自在作我自己
第一次感受
这种爱的决心
只想要只想要
和你一起
第一次感受
这种爱的决心
只想要只想要
和你一起
I Wanna Be With You

I viewed his blog on 3rd of feb. Wat he has written really touched my heart. He asked me is it impossible that both of us be 2gether again. Actually my answer is possible. But, I really worried that I will be hurt one more time. He also told me dat he will wait 4 me. Im waiting 4 him 2. But I din let him know all these. His msg later were then hurt me 1 more time. He disappointed me 1 more time. I was surprise that he舍得 to hurt me and disappointed me. He brought me into a dream. At last, it was still him awake me from very sweet dream. From dat moment, I told myself, never live in a dream again.

life..

2009-02-05T19:18:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, life is very stressful and hard 4 u. It would make u feel like life is very miserable…But, u sud always think positively bout it and overcome it 4 ur own sake 2 grow up and 2 have a more pleasant day…Life is always full of up and down…so don ever give up,but keep up ur gud work and look 4ward…Therefore, I hope that every1 will have a nice day and the other days onward.

Life is jus like a theater acted by us, human beings. And the director of the whole play is GOD...No matter wat has been fixed in the play, we still have 2 play the role which is meant 4 us 2 play...No matter wat play we played, we must faced it and complete it...But, everything dat have been played by us sud have a clear reason behind it..SO, find the reason and dealt with it positively..Don ever think negatively..U will suffer..Enjoy every seconds and minutes of ur life with all u have cos we wont noe wat might happen the next second..

my new world

2009-02-03T20:28:00.000+08:00

我從沒想過,有一天我會與自己的好朋友交往.跟他在一起時,真的很開心很輕松.他真的很好.常會為我着想.我真的很感動他居然愿意為了我而放棄最好的朋友.在短短不到一個月的時間,我看得出他為這段感情付出了很多.他為了讓這段感情可以維持的更長久,他真的改變了很多.他告訴我,是我讓他不再說謊.但我們的感情維持不到一個月就分開了.中間有太多的問題:雙方家長的反對,雙方不夠坦白,雙方處理事情的方式不夠好…等等.所以在感情還沒變質前,還是分開好,至少還可當朋友.我珍惜所有在一起的時刻.也會永遠放在心里.我相信若真心喜歡一個人,她/他一定會活在他/她的心里.就算找到對象了,他/她的心里也一定會留有一個小小的角落給之前喜歡的那一個人.

当你

2009-01-06T00:28:00.001+08:00

当你

如果有一天　我回到从前
回到最原始的我　你是否会觉得我不错
如果有一天　我离你遥远
不能再和你相约　你是否会发觉我已经说再见
当你的眼睛眯着笑　当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好　你从来不知道　想你想你　也能成为嗜好
当你说今天的烦恼　当你说夜深你睡不着
我想对你说　却害怕都说错　好喜欢你　知不知道
如果有一天　梦想都实现
回忆都成了永远　你是否还会记得今天
如果有一天　我们都发觉
原来什么都可以　无论是否还会停留在这里
也许空虚让我想得太多　也许该回到被窝
梦里会相遇　就毫不犹豫　大声的说我要说
当你的眼睛眯着笑　当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好　你从来不知道　想你想你　也能成为嗜好
啦～　啦～
我想对你说　却害怕都说错　好喜欢你　知不知道
啦～　啦～

我还想她

2009-01-06T00:27:00.001+08:00

我还想她

泪水将我淹没到底谁该难过
究竟是谁放掉这段感情

我才终于明白办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货

请告诉她我不爱她
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话

别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

我才终于明白办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货

请告诉她我不爱她
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话

别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

我不爱我不痛我不懂
我的心早已掏空
真心话言不由衷

请告诉她我不爱她
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话

别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口

就让沉默代替所有回答

别告诉她我还想她
就让沉默代替所有回答

sweet fren~

2009-01-06T00:25:00.000+08:00

1 + 1 = 2 eyes looking at u.

5 + 1 = 6 senses feeling u.

23 +1 = 24 hrs thinking bout u.

6 + 1 = 7 days a week missing u.

11 + 1 = 12 months a yr, i always need a sweet fren like u!!